known by your fruit.

“thus by their fruit you will recognize them.” (Matthew 7)

You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love. For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” If you bite and devour each other, watch out or you will be destroyed by each other.

So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.

The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

Galatians 5:16-26

thank you for Your Word, Lord. please, please, let it resound in my heart EVERY MOMENT.

gentle reminders.

last night, as i sat alone looking at randomness on here, thinking about the present, dwelling on the past & planning for the future…

i re-read the most intimate post i’ve shared on here.

{baby ej}

and i was ever so gently reminded that i have someone extra special waiting for me.

more importantly, i have someone extra special in Heaven to impress with this little life of mine.

i haven’t been doing a very good job of that lately.

i’m sorry, ej. please forgive me.

i need to make you proud of me as your mommy. your sisters here know what they see & feel the love i pour over them daily…

but you…i imagine you see much more.

you see me arguing with your father.

you see me complaining about a multitude of things.

you see me angry & frustrated.

you see me in ways i would never let ava or isla see me.

who knows…maybe you don’t & the fact that Jesus does should be enough to force the uglies out, but, for some reason right now, it’s not. for some reason though, you are inspiring me to be better.

starting now, i will be.

thank you, Lord, for all three of my inspiring, beautiful & amazing children.

stop & trust.

another true & meaning “daily blessing that i’d like to share with you…

part of my “new year, new you” goals – stop being so afraid of everything. opinions of others, choices of others affecting my family or children, health issues, failing as a mom, failing as a wife, failing as a christian, failing, failing, failing…

stop being afraid, kristi.

stop being afraid.

God is watching over you, so don’t listen to your fears. This is a choice. Trust God, and don’t give in to your fears.

God’s promise to believers is that, no matter what happens to us, he is working for our good — if we love him and follow him (Romans 8:28). If you’re a believer, the Bible says all things are working together for good — not that all things are good, but working together for good.

That means we can stop listening to our fears; there is no difficulty, dilemma, defeat, or disaster in the life of a believer that God can’t ultimately get some good out of. There is no need to fear the future. Your fears reveal where you do not trust God. Today, make a list of your fears, and ask God to help you identify why you have fear in those areas. Then, ask him to help you replace your fears with trust.

Now, this is important: expect God to start helping you learn to trust him with each fear. Then, watch to see how he helps you.

{emphasis added}

hubby’s dream girl

hubs & i stayed up last night watching celebrity wife swap. wife swap shows always amuse us. they’re kind of like super nanny’s…you get to take a peek at the way other people live & how they treat their kids & spouses & usually, you feel better about your own chaotic life for an hour! haha

well, not last night, thanks to mrs. gold!

tracey gold. (from growing pains)

my husband’s new dream wife!

her home is immaculate…her children – polite & well-mannered…her home is immaculate. did i say that already? no, she doesn’t have any help btw, as far as a house keeper, nanny, etc. she’s a housewife & mom to four boys & her home is immaculate!

ok, so to make matters worse – she also admitted that one of her biggest pet peeves is people sleeping in! ahh! hubby is an early riser himself. the guy probably doesn’t even need an alarm clock. he probably only really uses it in hopes that i’ll hear it! you wanna know what wakes me up? my babies’ cries & my husband’s voice. period. he could whisper to me & i’d hear it, but a beep, beep, beep!…nope not a chance i’m getting outta bed for that sound…they’re nice to look at though…

so, yes, tracey gold, you are his dream girl & you have given me much to live up to this year…

i am up for the challenge! i am going to be your dream girl, mister. you can count on it.

i know, everybody’s doin’ it, but yes, we are going to be eating healthy again, starting today & i’ve got some other topics that i want to focus on as well in 2012…

i have decided to begin my own proverbs 31 study – no workbooks, no guides, just a lot of earnest prayer & studying on my own.

also, in order to bring this house up to “the gold standard,” i need to get a few other areas in proper alignment, so i will also be honing in on a reasonable & workable schedule for a mom of two babies, who also watches two more babies during the week. on any given day, we have my two year old, my 6 month old, my 10 month old niece, a friend’s 7 month old…so…we’ve got a house-full nearly every day.

that said, i aim to share my tips & tricks (both old & new) as we go, so maybe if you’re like me & often think, “where on earth will i find the time???!” we can figure it out together…

hello, 2012. here we go…

something extra…

{healthy eating in 2012 resource}

still standing…

that’s what i’m doing – building wings.

some days lately it feels as though i’m having to do it frantically & others, i seem to get a few moments of floating.

today’s been a mixture of each.

have you ever felt as if you were on the verge of change? well, i’m on the cusp of a new me…i think i’m pretty much there.

i have had this happen once before in my life. i’m talking over-haul kind of stuff…

the first time was my senior year in high school. that’s been a long time ago now, but i remember that year so vividly b/c my life changed…i changed.

going into that year, my life had been “perfect.” seemingly close-knit family, successful in school & sports, oodles of friends…always on top of the world…you probably couldn’t catch me crying or frowning for that matter if you tried.

as of october of that year…homecoming court, lead role in an independent film, cheerleader since the 2nd grade…by february…dropped from the film, kicked off the squad, tattooed, 42 school absences, countless tardies, detention & divorced parents. needless to say, not the same pretty picture…

valentine’s day, february 14th of that year, i was at the lowest, most desperate time of my life. the future was blurry & i was just going through the motions on so many levels. when i didn’t think things could get any worse & i could probably count true friends on 2 fingers…Jesus showed up.

3 days later on february 17th, i caught a glimpse of Heaven…and just like that i was new.

i can’t explain to you how that happens, but when the Lord said through paul, “if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come,” He meant it…i really was new. i tried to remember how i felt about certain people, things or topics…tried to relate as the old me, but i never could. i really had become a new creation. my thoughts, my desires, my perceptions & realities were all new.

so this is why i have hope today. this is why, i know it’s going to be ok. i know, b/c i’ve already been there & i’ve experienced the outcome when you release your fears, insecurities, doubts, life…into the hands of the One who made you, knows you & knows what’s best for your life.

my issues are far from resembling any of the issues i faced back then. i’ve been faithfully devoted to Christ everyday since & my “sin issues” aren’t so blatant anymore…i’m learning the deeper you get into your walk w/the Lord, the more like brain surgery it becomes. He’s finding the details in me…the glitches.

through my recent blunders & struggles, i have found a desperation for Jesus like i haven’t felt in a long time. He’s reminding me that i had forgotten to keep leaning on Him. my spirit is more humbled now than ever & He’s probably allowing that to happen b/c “a meek & quiet spirit” is what He loves. {1 peter 3:4}

reminiscent of my previous experience, i’ve been unraveling. unlike the last time though, it’s been a slow process & this time, it’s not the things around me that are coming undone – it’s me. i’ve asked God to help me become this noble woman described in His Word, thinking He would help me to evolve from where i already had grown to. in actuality, He’s stripping me down & showing me the existing uglies instead.

lately, my shortcomings can be found mostly in relationships, most importantly, in my marriage. i’ve asked Him earnestly for months now to help me become a true proverbs 31 woman. i didn’t know that prayer was going to lead me here, but it has & i’m thankful for that.

apparently, you can’t pray to become a proverbs 31 woman & still insist on steering your own ship. lesson learned – the hard way. i have a confession. i’ve been arrogant in my marriage…self-righteous even at times. my way’s always the best…i am above hurting someone i love…nope. i’m finding neither of those are true. i’m seeing that i really can be hurtful & i haven’t been the woman i have the potential of being…the woman He created me to be. my husband deserves that woman. my children deserve that woman. God deserves that woman.

a wife of noble character who can find?
she is worth far more than rubies.
her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
she brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.

wow. full confidence. lacking nothing of value. bringing him good, not harm, all of her days…the Lord is really refining me right now. He’s got His magnifying glass on my heart & mind.

i’m learning to be thankful for my failures & i’m actually excited to see who’s coming out on the other side of them. i’m on the verge of becoming better, wiser, stronger b/c of them…

so i guess my message is simply this…

how well we rise will depend entirely on who you let build your wings.

check out brooke fraser’s song, shadowfeet in the playlist at the bottom of the page…

when the world is falling out from under me,
i’ll be found in You…
still standing…

amen.