frustration & faith

so this has been a downer of an evening…
hubby comes home – not a great day for him. breaks my heart. angers me really. he deserves a good day – at least ONE a week. doesn’t everyone? wouldn’t it be nice to be able to count on just one fabulous day each week? we pray, we work hard, we love and care for others. where’s our mountaintop? these valleys…just stink.

so i read 1 peter 5 again today. verses 5-11… “In the same way, you who are younger, submit yourselves to your elders. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, ‘God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.’ Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.”

i’ll probably need to read it over and over everyday. anyway, verse 7 resonates in my noggin especially. He CARES for me. He cares for US. my family. our daughters. we matter to Him. shortly after reading these scriptures, i opened my email and read my “daily blessing.” the title? “don’t worry! pray!” followed with philippians 4:7, which reads, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”

so – that is what i’m going to do – pray, pray, pray, and pray with expectation that God will move on our behalf, b/c He cares.

He knows what we need, but i will tell Him again, and i will thank Him for all He has done, starting now. i thank Him or providing for me a husband that has a heart for Jesus, a husband that goes to work each day, regardless of feelings and ALWAYS gives 150% – to the point that he works from home almost every weeknight and weekend – even though he won’t see an extra dime or affirmation for it. i thank Him for our healthy, beautiful girls. ava is the greatest gift He could have ever given us. the fact i get to wake up each morning and be her mommy is enough to praise God everyday for the rest of time. she is tangible joy. i know isla will be the same for us. pure, tangible joy – a piece of Heaven in the flesh. i thank Him for great families and true friendships. i thank Him for always meeting our needs – we have a warm, safe home, meals, cars, clothes. yes, i may look like a stuffed sausage these days, but i am still covered! 🙂 anyway, i guess what i’m saying is life is tough. it’s not fair, but God is good, and He will see us through this valley and the next.

marriage with a side of cinnamon banana pancakes…

first things first…the marriage stuff…so my hubby & i were having a little argument the other day – hard to imagine if you know us haha – and i was sulking privately in our bathroom, thinking thoughts like, “he should be more like…i deserve him to be like…” get the picture?  so then i had a pleasing revelation – “he really should be the kind of man that he himself would want ava to marry!”  he should be THAT kind of husband at ALL times, because we should model THAT for our daughters…RIGHT?!  right…and then, I believe the good Lord butt right into my scrutiny 🙂 and kindly reminded me that i should be the kind of woman & WIFE that i would like to model for my daughters.  ouch.  yep.  seems like i have a lot of work to do on my end and it doesn’t involve pointing my finger…so that’s what i am working on from now on – making a conscious effort to be a more godly example of a christian woman for my family.  so far that has involved getting my butt out of bed this morning w/ a smile on my face, making my family pancakes on a monday morning (usually just a saturday thing), doing a load of laundry, and showering all BEFORE ava woke up.  to some of you that may sound lame, b/c you do it all the time, but not this night owl.  i’m lucky to have my teeth or hair brushed most days before 7:30.  hopefully i can keep it up and keep the complaining spirit at bay in the process.

as for the pancakes…  🙂  one of my favorite traditions growing up was my mom’s weekend pancakes.  she ALWAYS made from scratch, which is probably why i loathe bisquick, and so now i’ve adopted that tradition myself.  unless we go out for breakfast, which is rare, or i’m sick, saturday mornings at our house almost always include homemade pancakes or waffles.  ava’s on a dairy-free diet, so i adapted the recipe for her.  some of my friends had asked for the recipe before, so here it is…btw it’s a work-in-progress, b/c i insist on getting them right.  they started out way too flat, but tasty.  then they were fluffy little clouds, but the hubby stated he would prefer having pancakes he could chew on, so here is my latest update.  enjoy!

cinnamon banana pancakes (dairy-free optional)

bowl #1
mash 1 ripened banana & coat w/ 2 tbs of sugar – mix well
add 1 tbs veg oil & 1/2 tsp vanilla
measure 1 cup milk (or rice/soy milk) & add 1 egg – beat together
add egg & milk mixture to banana mixture – combine

bowl #2
start w/ 3/4 cup flour
add 1/4 tsp salt, 1 tsp baking soda, 3 tsp baking power & 1 tsp cinnamon (or to your liking)
add additional 1/8 c flour – mix (if using non-dairy…add an extra 1/4 c instead)
add to wet mixture
stir – but don’t over do it – you want lumps & air pockets

cook on low/medium heat til lightly brown on each side (i give a flip then a gentle tap immediately to spread w/out flattening)

i love how puffy they get & still offer that chewiness you’re husbands will love 🙂
let me know if you make any alterations that work better!  thanks & enjoy!

The Start of Something Special…

I love reading blogs…especially artsy ones.  I began one months ago, but never really got into it.  Wordpress & I just didn’t mesh well apparently.  So, this is a new start, a new blog, a new purpose…

I often find myself, not only praying or singing in the shower, but “writing” letters in the shower, “giving advice” to others in the shower…”delivering” what God’s placing on my heart in the shower…notice a trend?  I have!  It’s my fault our water bill is so high!  I think my hubby’s on to me…  The shower is probably every mom’s sanctuary.  (I should probably be there right now actually while it’s still the little one’s nap time!)  But anyway…this will become my avenue, my outlet for those things usually lost once my feet hit dry floor…a chance to express my thoughts, burdens, creativity, and passions.

Who knows, maybe it’ll evolve from there…

And as for the title…my world…my daughters…God’s little reminders that i must press in & press on…ava & isla…

Edited to add that yes, this little blog has evolved and turned into “Klover House”! You can read all about the name choice and transition above by clicking the tab “Why Klover”!