December 29 – What Are We Waiting For?
We all have plans for our lives, right? We all have dreams and hopes. Sometimes, these aspirations involve our friends, spouses, children… Sometimes, these hopes rest solely on our own shoulders.
During these last twenty plus years of being a devoted lover of Jesus, I have had the unique opportunity of having wonderful dreams birthed in my heart. Some of these plans have been confirmed by words spoken to me by both trusted friends and total strangers. Some visions of my future were first realized when I was still in my teens and the beautiful pictures of those things to come only seem to grow richer as the years pass.
But, as the days tick by, I also feel that sense of, “Why not NOW, Lord?” more and more. The suspense and waiting is almost too much to handle at times. Even though I know in my heart of hearts that right now isn’t the most ideal time for certain things to come to pass in my life, I want to see the fruit before I’ve watered the seeds.
I found myself thinking today that I’d rather be closer to my “best life” by this time next year than be sitting here feeling as though I haven’t changed one bit. We’re growing older, but, admit it with me, that may be the only difference between the you reading this now and the you 365 days from today.
As I considered this possibility, I felt a deposit of wisdom hit my spirit.
If I want to be a writer, be seen as a writer… I must BE that writer right now. I must SEE myself as that writer today. I can’t wait for a publisher to take notice. I can’t beat myself up over lack of readership or popularity. If I am that writer twenty years from now, I am that writer right now.
If I want to minister to women on a public platform years from now, I need to keep ministering to women right where I am. My daughters are the future’s women. I need to pour into them all of the great advice I think I have right now. After all, our families are some of the best testimonials of a life well-lived. I need to encourage my friends. I must be a listening ear for my family members. I need to be that person of influence in the smallest areas of my life.
If I want to own a cafe/shop with my daughters, I need to carry myself as a proud entrepreneur today. For years, the dressmaking endeavors left me feeling so inadequate. Why would anyone want a frock made at 2AM on my dining room table when they could buy Matilda Jane? I told myself that my online shop would only succeed if I had a decent financial backing to help it flourish. I was constantly my own worst critic and biggest nag. I saw myself as a “nobody” and I’m sure the lack of confidence hurt my businesses.
Whatever you feel that the Lord has called you to, don’t put off being that person until the circumstances are just right and you “look” the part. Start seeing yourself as that future you NOW.
As I wait for those cafe dreams to fully transpire, I will keep developing my hospitality skills. I’ll continue to learn new things in the kitchen. I’ll keep preparing meals for others. I’ll keep baking with my daughters. I’ll keep praying over buildings in my city. I will keep watering those seeds of faith and promise.
When I was pregnant with Miriam, who is nearly three, a Man of God came to our home church and prophesied that our youngest two children would be worshipers and encouraged us to “invest in a keyboard NOW.” Of course a then two-year-old and newborn can’t play the piano, but what did we do? We bought the piano. We planted the seeds.
Now, my eight- and six-year-old both play. It’s a great sacrifice for us, financially, and the prophetic word wasn’t even directed at them, but we will water the seed. We have taken the Lord at His word and have decided to pour into those future claims. Neither plays extremely well, but to us they are musicians, and we treat them as such.
We need to do the same for ourselves. What are we waiting for?
What do you want to see happen for yourself next year? What did the Lord lay on your heart? You wouldn’t wait until the keys are in your hands before saving for the car, right? Don’t wait until the situation looks just right before you start seeing yourself a certain way.
“Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and He will establish your plans.”
Hold your head up high, and put that on repeat.
Klover House Christmas:
As New Year’s Day approaches, I’d love to share a few of my favorite, easy breakfast ideas. I don’t know about you, but we love breakfast around here. I’ve been kind of taking it easy lately, but I love making breakfast on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day. I’ve linked some posts here and I hope it helps you find a new, delicious breakfast to try! xo