proverbs 31: workable?

oh how i wish i had some time to share all of these millions of thoughts racing through my brain! when i envision my head on a cellular level…i imagine something that resembles what a pop bottle looks when you shake it up and all of the little bubbles want to come bursting out, but they can’t. i have 17 posts in my draft folder, people. all of them with hopes to be shared one day, but probably not today. i’ll be surprised if this one gets published today.  🙂

there are so many things on a mom’s plate, right? gotta keep it all in perspective too, or else the end of the day leaves you with a feeling of “fail” as a mom/wife/something-or-other. i’m desperately praying for a balance that is all mine. i look to my left and my right (figuratively speaking), and see other moms balancing their priorities without even the slightest stumble, it seems.  i can’t get these ten piles of laundry put away, let alone empty the dishwasher, phone a friend, make a craft or write a post…

 so many other women seem to do it, though.

‘you don’t know what their kitchens look like,’ my hubby will remark. and he’s right.

i know that we can’t compare our lives and how many items are checked off of the to-do lists. no two families are the same; no two parents are the same; no two schedules are the same…

so, i do what i have been inclined to do, i consider my example…that incredible proverbs 31 woman.

a few weeks ago, on our way to lake erie for our daycation, i had a conversation with hubs about this very thing. ‘listen to this {i slowly read him the 31st chapter of proverbs}. did you ever realize how much of this is about her working????’ (and the remainder is about her excellent character and how her husband and children bless/praise/have full confidence and faith in her).

working.


v. 13 – she selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.
v. 14 – she is like the merchant ships bringing her food from afar
v. 15 – she gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls
v. 16 – she considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard
v. 17 – she sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks
v. 18 – she sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night
v. 19 – in her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers
v. 20 – she opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy
v. 22 – she makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple
v. 24 – she makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes
v. 27 – she watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness
v. 31 – give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate


feeling inadequate yet?  well don’t.

i must say, after reading this through a different lens, (it’s amazing how you can read the same scriptures over and over again, but they can continue to speak to you on different levels or ways each time!  that’s b/c the Word is alive.) i was shocked at how much this woman is working and thriving and her family isn’t suffering for it – they are blessed by it!  they praise her!  of course, we don’t know if she had already paid her dues in the extra needy toddler years…maybe this is a glimpse at her finish line?  or maybe, with God’s grace and provision, it’s not.  maybe it is possible for me now.  maybe i don’t have to play the just-hang-on-tight-til-they’re-in-school game.  maybe, just maybe, i can be a fierce force for good in my family now.  consider it, why would God have me wait for my kids to be out of my hair, so to speak, to excel at this?

i stayed up late last night.  i didn’t really even go to bed.  i let that lamp of mine burn all night long (hubs isn’t going to like reading that the lights were on all night.  sorry).  i sorted mail piles…i nursed eden…i tried to write…i ironed a lot of clothing.  by 7am, i could quote the news verbatim, b/c i learned that they repeat the same stories over and over again from about 4:30 on…  if i hadn’t been passed out on the sofa when hubby came downstairs for breakfast, i would’ve spared him the trouble of reading headlines…

i suffered today physically and mentally for my late night tasks.  how tired and crappy i felt all day was more like rotten fruit from my attempt to be productive.  so obviously, pushing my limits isn’t the wise thing to do either.  so where is the balance?  how can i be the woman God created me to be when there just doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day or energy in these bones.  even my hallelujah is tired…

i know it will take discipline.  i know it will take determination.  i know it will take prayer.

and i know with God, i can do this thing.

the proverbs 31 woman isn’t the exception to the rule.  i believe that she’s the norm.  God is a good God and His Word is true.  He wouldn’t give us a standard if the bar was set at an unreachable place.  He’s the great encourager, and He’d never set us up to fail.  that said, i do also believe that such a lifestyle is only attainable with Him and through Him.  i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (philippians 4:13).  

all things.

stay tuned.  later today, i’ll let you in on where i am going to start.

xo,
kristi

*see proverbs 31 in it’s entirety here, as well as read my personal proverbs 31 mission.

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