“get your priorities straight”

today’s daily blessing kind of hit me in the face just now. are you in one of these “too many irons in the fire” / living-by-unrealistic-expectations kind of seasons too?

it’s crazy, b/c if i were to list the things i have my hands in, it really wouldn’t look like a whole lot on paper & i’d probably think, “geesh, what’s the hang-up, sister?” in reality, though, i feel a little stretched lately & a whole lotta tired.

the image came to me earlier of my hubby & i in a whirlpool (like a literal one, ppl…not an appliance.)

{source: national geographic}

this season of our lives has been a little rough for me. i’m sure for him, too, at times, but i just speak for myself here. it’s been a time of tremendous & amazing spiritual growth, emotional stretching & maturation, ups & downs, unpredictability. it’s been really different kind of season in our lives.

the image was so appropriate for me, b/c for the longest time i feel like we’ve been circling this “moment” of being totally swept away into a completely different kind of lifestyle/mindset/something… i’m being entirely figurative here, but change has been coming.

so this morning, i realized i think we’re in the thick of it. we’re spiraling into this whole new place of walking by faith, and while the mister is totally calm, prepared for whatever may come, if i visualize myself being sucked into this place of the unknown, i have a look of pure panic. picture it – we’re swirling, whirling down…he’s all “it is well with my soul,” & i’m all bug-eyed-cat-in-a-bath-tub. spiritually bug-eyed isn’t beautiful. my faith is too low. i need a boost.

this visual combined with today’s daily blessing, really revealed a few significant things to me.

1 – the mister is calm b/c he has a healthy level of faith. he’s in the Word. he’s being refreshed & that has his spirit in rest mode – not panic mode.

2 – i have my mind in too many places. forget the list of “things” – it’s my mind that’s going in 50 million directions at once, which is proving to be exhausting.

3 – i don’t have a scheduled, established time to be in the Word. i am up several times a night & being exhausted, i sleep until the last possible minute before the kids wake up, often forgoing even a shower for the day (sorry tmi, but don’t worry, i get one later), & my night consists of mom/wife/housekeeper/coupon-er/cook/everything-under-the-sun-except-devotions stuff…

soooo…bottom-line…this is not God’s will for my life or my day. my soul is panic-stricken, b/c my spirit is being malnourished. i need to step back, schedule that time & ask God for an extra dose of grace, energy, & faith to see my time with Him through every day.

i often thought being a stay-at-home/work-from-home mom would allow me to have this glorious, unstructured day. the kids are all on a routine w/their meals, sleep, activities, but somehow, i’ve convinced myself that i don’t need that. it may be exactly what i need though to really get what i need to accomplish done. i’m seeing that even in my “non-professional” profession, i still desperately need those daily “prep periods” – maybe i should have the hub install a bell system, too? 🙂

so anyway, sorry if i talked you into utter confusion, but if you could understand these ramblings & can even relate, be encouraged with me to bridle yourself a little bit, surrender to a schedule, submit your thoughts to some alone time with the Lord, & RELAX.

i’m going down this figurative whirlpool with or without the overwhelming worry, so i may as well give it my all to direct my focus entirely to the One who already knows the outcome.

from the daily blessing:

Get Your Priorities Straight

Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest. – Matthew 11:28

Most of you are doing too much right now. Your schedules are too busy. You have so many irons in the fire that the fire is about to be put out. You’re smothering it.

How do you know when you’re doing too much in your life? How do you know when you’re out of God’s will? How do you know if all the things you’re doing are what God expects you to do or if you just put those expectations on yourself?

The answer is simple: You’re always tired. It is not God’s will for your life to always be tired. God never intended for you to go around with that heavy a load. In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying your heavy loads, and I will give you rest” (TEV).

What’s got you burdened? Most of us carry a yoke of burden that we’ve put on ourselves because of unresolved guilt and unrealistic expectations. We’re trying to prove that we matter. You matter to God. You don’t have to do anything to matter to God. We put all these burdens on ourselves.

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