frustration & faith

so this has been a downer of an evening…
hubby comes home – not a great day for him. breaks my heart. angers me really. he deserves a good day – at least ONE a week. doesn’t everyone? wouldn’t it be nice to be able to count on just one fabulous day each week? we pray, we work hard, we love and care for others. where’s our mountaintop? these valleys…just stink.

so i read 1 peter 5 again today. verses 5-11… “In the same way, you who are younger, submit yourselves to your elders. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, ‘God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.’ Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.”

i’ll probably need to read it over and over everyday. anyway, verse 7 resonates in my noggin especially. He CARES for me. He cares for US. my family. our daughters. we matter to Him. shortly after reading these scriptures, i opened my email and read my “daily blessing.” the title? “don’t worry! pray!” followed with philippians 4:7, which reads, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”

so – that is what i’m going to do – pray, pray, pray, and pray with expectation that God will move on our behalf, b/c He cares.

He knows what we need, but i will tell Him again, and i will thank Him for all He has done, starting now. i thank Him or providing for me a husband that has a heart for Jesus, a husband that goes to work each day, regardless of feelings and ALWAYS gives 150% – to the point that he works from home almost every weeknight and weekend – even though he won’t see an extra dime or affirmation for it. i thank Him for our healthy, beautiful girls. ava is the greatest gift He could have ever given us. the fact i get to wake up each morning and be her mommy is enough to praise God everyday for the rest of time. she is tangible joy. i know isla will be the same for us. pure, tangible joy – a piece of Heaven in the flesh. i thank Him for great families and true friendships. i thank Him for always meeting our needs – we have a warm, safe home, meals, cars, clothes. yes, i may look like a stuffed sausage these days, but i am still covered! 🙂 anyway, i guess what i’m saying is life is tough. it’s not fair, but God is good, and He will see us through this valley and the next.

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